I'm Only Going to Break Your Heart...

Recently I was sitting in the chapel looking at the Tabernacle, trying to have a quiet moment of prayer with God. I don’t know about you, but this is very difficult for me as it seems that every time I try to slow everything down and find a quiet moment, the noise in my head only gets louder. Stressors, things I need to get done, things I am worried about, songs stuck in my head…

So, as I am kneeling in front of Christ, trying to clear my mind, a song starts building momentum in my head. Every time I attempt to squash it, it comes back louder and louder, and soon is reverberating in my head.

“I’m only going to break break your, break break your HEART…”

I started to get so frustrated that I could not just concentrate. Thanks SO much Taio Cruz, I really appreciate the fact that your new song is catchy, but not so much the fact that I can’t get it out of my head when I am trying to pray!! As I sat there wrestling with that song, a light bulb went off. I started thinking more deeply about some of the lyrics of the song…

“There’s no point trying to hide it
No point trying to evade it
I know I got a problem…
Now I’m only going to break your heart
And shatter and splatter it all into little itty bitty pieces…”

I began thinking about Christ and His sacrifice. How he gave up his life for us, but if it had just been me, He would have done the same. How he was thinking of me as he walked Calvary, was nailed to the cross and slowly suffocated. How he was consumed by love… and here I am sitting in front of him for 5 minutes and thinking, “I am only going to break your heart.” How true those words actually were at that moment. How appropriate. I am only going to stumble and fall, sin, destroy the beauty that God has made for me with my own selfishness, and continue to torture Christ by condemning Him to death over and over and over again with my rejection, poor choices, and disrespect. AND YET, he continues to love us. He takes that chance. He lays down his life for us, a bunch of lowly heartbreakers, and makes our struggle for grace beautiful.

“Indeed only with difficulty does one die for a just person, though perhaps for a good person one might even find courage to die.
But God proves his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
~ Romans 5:7-8

That is the beauty of God’s love for us. That despite what we do, He still remains; loving, caring, never giving up.

After all the junk we have done, will do… If you were the only sinner in the world, Christ would still die for you.

A God that loves us THAT much… ludacris, huh?